TRUTH
I talk a lot about saying your truth, about how important it is. And obviously you have to know your truth in order to say it. Sometimes that's the really hard part. Knowing who you are and what you want or need. And then there is this really interesting part that happens when you get to that place. It's like, "Wow, I really do know what I need," and that's where expectation settles in. I had this feeling that when I spoke my truth, everything would fall into place. That the people around me would say, "look at her, she really knows what she wants," and that somehow things would get easier. I thought that authenticity would MAKE things easier. But life is still life and the people around us are still just the people around us. And the sticky spots don't just disappear. At first, it really made me angry! I thought, "Wait! No fair, this shouldn't be hard--I'm telling my truth." But sometimes the rewards are not so quickly won. And even when we know ourselves and are being authentic, the rug can get pulled out from underneath us. And that's when we have the opportunity to practice what we learn in yoga; to be present with ourselves. To be intimate with our emotions: frustration, fear, anxiety, anger. We notice the feelings and sit with what is. We try not to make choices from these emotional places, and realize that they are just that: places, moments in time. And then we tell the truth all over again, to ourselves and to the folks around us.
PRACTICE: This week do an easy awareness practice. Ask yourself, "Am I still breathing?" You will have to stop and become present to know the answer to this easy question. Pick one yoga pose that you enjoy, and be fully engaged with it. Notice the sensations that appear from the ground up and check in with your breath. If you find your mind wandering, say "thinking" and come fully back to the task at hand. Practice being present. This is the path to unearthing your Truth.
